Was told not to see harry for his sake...I mean, what is he suppose to think if i go visit him all of a sudden and he realizes he has not been seeing me...and that he would probly be confused wth is goin on with me not being around and him having 4 kids to play with him...hmm...really wanna go secretly see him from afar..but that's kinda weird and stalk-ish rite...

I hope he is having a time of his life lar...i really do... I doubt there is even a slightest chance of getting him back for my bday or anything....UNLESS i get married now and bring him back...hahhahahahahaha.....yeah..rite...

Hazel with lil grumpy...hahahaha...rmbr him...back then before leaving for melb...sweeetttttt **

Alrite, i think ill look super horrible if my pics were to appear on anything for the KL Marathon run this morning. Basically i reached super early (to avoid the previous mishap..haha..was not able to go for the BHP Orange Run coz the the auto gate was spoilt...lol)..nway, yeah the q for toilet was super long and it was dirty..Nway, started at 7am and I finished at 8.03 or 8.05am..i forgot...i din time myself...I know! I know! coz i was relying on the DAG system. Nway, the whole run was exhausting! considering i haven ran the last 3 - 4 weeks...nway, this time, i felt i was nt really pushing myself...was kinda afraid ill overexert myself (coz i dun think i can take MC tomorrow). And there were so many uphills!!! OMG, i wanted to stop there and then! but i din lar..hahaha...the last 3km was the killa...ppl were overtaking and i tried to run faster...but of coz, as expected, i can't really do much...I could have done better than this..the last time was less than 1hour.

Gonna have to wait til Tuesday, atleast to find out my placing....hahahahhaha...

The funny thing is during the whole course, i told myself "jess, wth did u get urself into??!" hahaha...the last time also, i asked myself tat...but its the feeling I get when i cross the finishing line.....awesome...especially when there is someone racing against you towards the ending line and then u realize u have to push urself...and THEN you win...haha..but it din happen this time...i mean, there were some other guys around but i din really care...all i care was if there are other girls catching up from behind...hahahahaha....

Damn kiasu i feel... haha... but i din win top 3..so s'okay....just crossing my fingers that im top 10 ...haha..mayb top 20 at least....