| I was everything I wanted to be back then in high school,
I could also see that teachers were happy to have me as their student,
And fellow classmates were happy to have me as their friend, haha, let me emphasize, this was in MY dream,
But then it all started when I met someone when I moved on after high school. It was all fun, exciting, new and different,
All the moments and all the experiences,
They were so tempting,
I had to go after it,
Go after that person who was creating these new experiences for me to enjoy,
I was getting closer, closer than I could ever imagine,
So fun! That I then, made my choice,
I didn't know what I was getting into yet,
But all I could think of was, I wanted the same lifestyle for the rest of my life. Then...
I found myself in a room, or was it, a house,
I can't recall.
But it was a place, far from my normal world,
At first, I could spend most days and most nights in that room, in that house,
I wasn't afraid,
I could go into it and out of it anytime I wanted to,
There was this "lift" which allowed me to go to places I wanted to go,
It was so cool!
Coz I could go anywhere I dreamt of in that room,
Just using that "lift". Slowly, day by day,
This someone, in the same room I was spending so much time in,
Began to turn into something...
It was something which I have always been afraid of when I was little...
Like a devil inside your house who occassionally comes out to scare you when you are all alone,
This something was in a form of a middle-aged and fat person in black,
He had a moustache,
I know moustache isn't all that scary...there was nothing scary about this man's face,
But believe me..
Coz this person...his presence, his charisma was nothing but intimidating..
Just being with this person, alone, in that room, started to give me chills,
Chills up to my spinal cord. This person began controlling my movements, my going ins and outs,
I could no longer use the "lift" to get to places,
I knew, something was gonna hurt me, if I tried getting out of the room using that "lift".
Nothing happened to me as yet,
But there was this feeling...in me,
Like an intuition, a sixth sense...
Telling me to stay in, and keep out of trouble,
I wouldnt wanna get into trouble with that man,
The room to me, wasnt that cosy anymore,
It was cold, the room was always cold,
I felt like I just got up from my bed and was kidnapped into this strange looking room,
With no way out. None. The reality then sank in,
I was trapped inside this room, inside this house,
This person, in the same room, wanted my life,
Wanted to rule it and take control of it,
I felt that all I could do was give in,
Whatever he wanted, I had to give in,
I had this feeling which tells me I owe my life to this person,
Coz I was in his room,
And I was afraid of what he could do,
It was freakishly disgusting and scary,
No one could help me get out of this,
I got in this place all by myself and...now,
I can't even scream for help because no one knows where I am,
And where this room, this house was. And then something happened,
Something impossible!
In that room, somehow, a someone came along,
A friend?
I knew I was still within the room, the house, when that friend took me out for a walk,
That friend...I don't exactly know how he got into the same room,
But miraculously we are now in that room, in that house. And then something happened, again,
Something impossible!
I was given a key, a key to a room?
Or perhaps a key out of the room? Out of the house?
A feeling inside me told me I could use it now or never,
Get out, run out, or stay in this black hole forever..alone,
I knew what I had to do. I ran towards the door,
But then, I saw that middle-aged and fat person in black looking at me,
He had that look, scary this time,
Yet...
It seemed like he had to let me go..let me get out,
I don't exactly know what happened to him that made him think that,
But at that moment, when I was looking at him,
For that one last time,
I knew this wasn't my place anymore,
And this wasn't the life I was meant to live,
I wanted out. I ran, again,
This time, I ran with that friend to another end of the house,
One by one, I tried unlocking the doors there with that one key I was given,
I was scared to the bottom of my heart, if that even makes sense, but trust me, I was so afraid,
Fear was in my heart,
Thoughts were in my head,
"What if the person in black changes his mind and pulls me back into this black hole!",
I was praying so hard,
"God, please please, let me be able to unlock this door NOW". Finally, the door opened,
I ran out towards the road,
I see people all over, finally,
Leading their normal lifes,
Everything was back to normal, at least, I was hoping it will, soon,
All I wanted was to go back home,
I just wanted out from that room, that house,
I wanted my own life back.
It was all just a dream.
I woke up....feeling funny...
But I knew what exactly He is trying to tell me. Thank you! For bringing me out of the "curse".
My own choices brought me there.
My own choices sucked me so deep into the "curse".
I was lost in my own selfish world.
But You are so gracious.
You sent a friend to me at my lowest moments.
Miraculously.
It was impossible.
Coz no one would ever dare step into that scary house.
But You made that friend so brave, so courageous, so self-less.
Stepping into that scary house could mean he would get hurt.
But You protected him and You protected me,
You appeared to me through him, in my darkest moments,
To tell me that the life I was living, was never meant for me.
I was meant to do more than that.
You definitely have the whole world waiting for me.
To experience, to love and to learn.
I know You saved me.
Thank You for loving me and never forsaking me. |
